Resurrection?

It has been around 8 or 9 months since I posted an update on this blog. It didn’t take me long after that post to disappear

What have I been up to sense then? I further continued to bring my dream to life. 3D Animation has been such a blessing to me. I have self taught myself, as well as learning from communities of people. That little list also includes a very awesome beta tester for a well known company in the industry.

I have continued to learn and use Blender as my primary software, bundled with 3D Coat for sculpting, and little things like a Wacom tablet. The learning and trying new things never stopped until a few months ago.

In my last blog, I wrote a few tiny little sentences describing how this love has taken all my time, as well as making me isolate myself from the world. This made a huge impact on me, and really started making me evaluate my life.

Have you ever gotten to that part of your life where everything is at a stand still? That is where mine has been, I’m.. Well I was basically stuck in limbo repeating an unfortunate crazy cycle of the same thing.

Really, if you look back at my blog you can tell this. I don’t think my dream for animation was ever a dream at all. I was just being close minded and only seeing it one way. Then came a huge slump, I didn’t even turn on my PC for a couple of months, never even thought of animation.

So after weeks of battling with myself, I didn’t know what else to do. Until I had a long lost friend walk back into my life. After many discussions a point came to me. What do I truly love? What was a moment in my life that changed me? Just little questions like this, ones that you really want to think about.

And, really, I never talked much about my personal life on here. Just little things here and there. I did however post one of my most proudest moments in life. The missionary trip to Peru.

I absolutely loved every bit of it, the experience to see that part of the world was great. Helping the people though was what really had my heart, it was so fulfilling and sparked passion in what flashed before my eyes, and I apparently missed it.

The only downside to that trip was it was a medical trip, which was great. This though was a huge disadvantage to me. I have no medical knowledge, never taken a class of any form in it.

This leads me to the daunting task of searching for what I think I want in life to help others. The medical field. What? I’m not sure yet. So many options are available, and my drive and motivation have been through the roof here lately. Its been so crazy that my evaluation at work was top notch (Yea I wasn’t expecting that). But apparently my managers are picking up on a lot of little things like going out of my way to help others and such, no big deal really.

The biggest thing is finding what I want to do. I’ve spent a great deal of time working, and saving as much money as I can, which has formed a nice pile of money.

The craziest thing is certain jobs I’ve noticed like nursing are dominated by females. My biological father is an RN, and its funny because I made fun of him one time over it. I’m still not really sure how I feel about it. But I’ve thrown it out to people just to get a general reaction, and have received: Why? I’ve been laughed at (Because I’m a guy), and had others tell me to go for it.

Its not the option I have locked down, but more of an open minded approach on things. I’ve mentioned before that I have never attended college, I was a drop out, and achieved the paper which reads General Educational Development on it. Other than that this is all new.

I’m a firm believer in chasing what you want, and I tell people that all the time. My life has been at a crossroads for awhile with me not taking the next step. Its about time for me to bust through some new doors.

I’m not sure how this blog is going to go, because I want to continue it. It may slightly change directions as times goes on. With new things being talked about, and I’m sure not everyone will like that, but its OK.

I will still continue my talk on video games, because its still a big passion in life. Animation has become nothing more than a hobby. Challenging myself in making my life better along with others has simply become my new passion, and one that I always looked over in my 26 years of life on this Earth.

I hope everyone is doing great.